We have a mostly loving relationship sprinkled in with some sadness.
I love the time spent together eating really good food and laughing.
I love the favorite family recipes and reminiscing about past memories.
I love time spent with cousins playing with and teasing each other.
This past weekend, as I baked the apple pie the way my grandmother did, I opened the brown sugar and saw the ceramic plaque from Sedona. This is supposed to keep the sugar from hardening and it really works!!
You see, this was a gift from my mom. She always gave the most thoughtful gifts. She knew that I liked useful gifts too!
Seeing this little 3 inch piece flooded me with all kinds of emotions. Grief will do that to you.
I miss my mom cooking for us.
I miss her hugs.
I miss the way she looked at me when she was feeling gratitude and awe for me.
I miss her calls to see how I'm doing.
You know what though?
Grief really is a journey and feeling all of the emotions is the only way to keep on moving forward.
So, I stopped and felt the emotions for a minute sending those tender feelings some kindness.
And, I felt loved. I felt enough in that moment.
Grateful for the love that I can still feel from my mom.
The video below is How Gratitude shows you that you are ENOUGH